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I had a dream last night about my friend Sarah. We haven’t talked for a while, and I think about her a lot, but just haven’t emailed — just busy, life, school, whatever. But in my dream, she had a baby and didn’t tell me, and I couldn’t believe after all the years we’d been friends that I didn’t hear about it. I was so sad in the dream.

I forgot about it until about an hour ago, and I started remembering the dream as if it were something that actually happened, and I was sad all over again. Then I thought about how we haven’t talked for so long, and I suddenly missed her so much that I started crying, like really sobbing, so hard I could hardly see.

I tried to email her, and all the addresses I have for her bounced back. I cried some more. I don’t know how we fell out of touch. I don’t know when it happened, and I am so sorry.

She used to read and comment here, and I loved that we kept in contact like that, because that’s how we always were — I would tell a story, and she would have the funniest thing to say about it. She could always make me laugh, and the last time I saw her we had such a whale of a time, I can’t believe I didn’t call her after that and say Let’s do that again, every month. I’ll come down to visit you. I will make the time, because you are so important to me. I didn’t say that.

Sarah, if you’re out there… leave me a comment (and an email address that works!) and tell me how you’re doing. I miss you.

P.S. If you had a baby and didn’t tell me, you better have a good goddamn reason.

UPDATE (4/22): She just emailed me! Hooray! I am so glad to hear from her.